Tipsy Words

Yesterday my 5 years-old nephew called me. All he want to ask is



Kenapa orang jepun suka buat origami?

Met Adam and his annoying face

And I was like ' Why you young boy ask me question liddat out of sudden? Why??? '

I don't know the answer. I just simply say I don't know.

He ask me so probably because I am the one who teach him how to do origami. I think he hear that word 'origami' for the first time from me. So the question just pop out in his head and he think I know the answer. But who told you that orang jepun buat origami? Knp bukan orang india ke orang arab ke. Oh kids nowadays so brilliant.



I think i'm not ready to have a kids on my own yet 😆 I can't answer their witty question. I could not handle it.

Hi you all...

Have you ever like someone that you think you could die? Then you feel like you have to confess so you can get back your normal life. I am now feeling so. I could die, seriously. I cannot breath, I cannot digest what I ate, I cannot feel food on my tastebud, I cannot focus on my work. I just cannot do anything. It was like someone have spell me. I keep thinking. I am overthinking. I keep imagining things that could happen. What he will think about me, what will be his respond, would he freak out (like me, if someone ever confess to me i would have done so), would he tell his friend, would he live a normal life (because i cannot)

Here come the second question; have you ever confess to him/her about your feeling? How many times? Once? Twice? Or you didn't count at all? Or never? Ok, never is my answer. I never confess. I never have the COURAGE! It require a big size of courage. Not as big as when you attend a job interview. This one is the bigger one. The biggest.

I had started a conversation with him, but i freak out immediately after that. I want to know what his respond, but once again I don't have the courage. I'm afraid if the conversation stop there.

Good luck to me

To 15 years old ika...

I am 25 years old you. You are not okay now. You're not doing well.
You graduate law school at the age of 24. You got a job at random law firm at the countryside. But you are not okay. Your salary is not that high as you expected. You were disappointed. So you wait for another bright profession. At the age of 25, you still waiting. You still waiting for something unsure.

You were clever. But in the middle of the journey, you lost. You just follow the flow. You never made big twist decision. At the end, you ask yourself "am i right". You want to regret but you cannot fix anything.

You are fatigue. You cannot figure anything that you really love. Sometimes you live without love. Even mom's love. Because she gone when you are 19. You become worst after she gone. People thought you fine because you choose to show them that you are fine. Time passed, as people know that you are doing good (in fact you are not) you dying inside slowly. You become someone fragile and numb and full of sorrow without you even realize.

Just stay strong Ika. You cannot change anything. You cannot follow other road, because other road is not yours. This is what was written to you. Just stay strong and keep praying.

-Zulaikha 16417:1631

Esok saya cuti yeayy. The peak of happiness for every week is on Thursday because weekend is coming.

So i change my blog template in a new hope that i will update it more frequent. Nevertheless i am just a busy lady *ohplisla*

It's been a long time since i change my blog template. And i think i am old enough because i don't know how to make the image look smaller. Anyone please help me? (if there is anyone..) All photo in previous posts which is too big really annoys me. *sigh* ok, let me try upload one photo here

oh so random. tapi kan tetiba rasa rindu nak makan the manhattan fish market ermm dapnyee

p.s. ok now i know why the photo appear so big. because it was just preview on my blog 'home'. when i click 'continue reading' the photo appear in a normal size.okay okay okayyy..

Hai uollss. Happy 2016! Western gitewww sambut new year. Sbnrnya seorang ika ni tak kisah sangat dah masuk tahun baru. For me, it's just another day, another month. It's a tomorrow for 31st Dec, the next month for month of December. Bezanya, it takes a year from the last  1st January. Times flew everyday, and we are growing older and hoping wiser too. So, for me, its a new year ke apa ke, this is a new day with a new hope. haaa gitewww deep kan. I always remind myself i will never be as young as i am today, so i need to appreciate every second i'm breathing. Haaa nampak tak i'm getting wiser. Well, sel otak makin banyak berhubung.  Walaupun 2016 takde lah menggumbirakan hati aku sangat, tp aku sebenarnya ada beberapa target baru yang aku fikirkan dalam otak aku ni. Sebelum aku terlupa, lebih baiklah aku tulis.

1. Love myself more
Seorang ika berjanji akan menyayangi dirinya lebih baaaanyaaaakkk lagi. Ada je orang lain yang sayang aku *ayat taknak bagi nmpak pathetic and forever alone*. Maksud aku kat sini ialah aku akan jaga food intake aku, i will spend time for fitness activity, i will take enough plain water. Saya janji. Semua benda ni bukan untuk kurus semata-mata. Tapi untuk membuktikan betapa aku menyayangi diri aku (sebab kalau aku berazam nak kurus, itu tidak akan pernah menjadi realiti, so aku tuka ayat jelah hahhah. harap tahun ni kurus meletops mcm kajol imej baru). Aim aku ialah pada raya tahun ni, aku akan mengatakan ya utk semua reunion tak kiralah sekolah rendah ke sekolah menengah ke (means dat aku kena lose weight, atau kalo aku msih lagi gemok, aku kena yakin diri main redah jelah)



2. Be beauty and classy
Okey, tahun ni tahun utk seorang ika menjadi cantik (haaaa tinggi betul cita2 and very determination la kan, aku harap takde orang yang kenal aku baca ni, nnt msti diorg gelak. ) Ni relate dengan yang first jugak. Kena jaga diri. Sambil itu, aku nak jaga kulit kasi meletops gebu lg. Aku nak try produk kosmetik baru sebenarnya ni. Dalam list skrg ni haba labo. Well, I kan menjadikan Cheong Song Yi (MLFTS)  sbg idola i. Haruslah nak jadi mcm dia, nak kulit lembap mcm tu, taknak kulit kering, kusam je. How to be classy? Elakkan dari menjadi lo'la' (org utagha ckp. mcm tu ke eja nya. hurmm) Eh sbnrnya classy tu apa. hurmm ntahlahh

3. A month a book
I love reading books. Tapi aku sangatlah pemalas nak buka buku and malas nak mula baca. Sebab tu satu buku pun makan bulan2. Bila aku stop baca, aku tak tau nak sambung balik bila. Hr tu aku bc seseorg (read:crush) punya status, dia ada target buku byk mana baca dalam setahun. So, aku pun terus menetapkan target seperti beliau. Suka tiru orang nampaknya aku ni.

4. Travel. At least Sabah.
Memandangkan duit belom banyak lagi tahun ni, (mcm tak byk, tp rezeki, kita taktau kan. Aku harap tiba2 aku jadi jutawan, takpun puluhribuan ngehngehngeh) aku nak gi jenjalan ngan kawan. Harap ada rezeki la. Utk next year, nak g korea. hurmm berangan lagi.

5. Cuba amalkan makanan sunnah
Yang ni pun agak susah nak buat. First of all, i kna say goodbye to jajan. Harap dpt la train lidah ni kpd pemakanan yg sihat dan halalan toyyiban.

Okey. Itu sahaja laporan kali ini. InsyaAllah bila ada masa aku akan mengapdet pasal chambering and the guidelines. So mereka yg br mula chambering bleh la dpt info skit. Buat setakat ni i masih malas. Okey sekian.

Assalamualaikum

I feel bad about myself when I failed to keep my promise (to keep update on my project). I should told you that I had try some d.i.y craft But, being me, i am too lazy to write.

But now, I had take my life seriously. Yeah, more serious. I had start my chambering a.k.a pupilage or we called ourselves as Pelatih Dalam Kamar (PDK). See, I can say that I am ready for some commitment. hik hik >.<

I hope I could do we and I could be one successful lawyer!

For the next 14 weeks
Just be strong zulaikha
Read the case
Study smarter
Do your part
Do not procrastinate
Ignore all the s***
Control you emotion
DO not easily affected emotionally
Be alone is okay
Just make it perfect
Make it for your own sake

But remember!
Make your niat Lillah
Above all

Stay focus

I really hope there is one lucky gentleman will dedicate this song to me..




And he really meant for it, seriously!
Motip aku post benda ni?

Assalamualaikum..
Dah lama rasanya tidak berjinak-jinak dengan dunia penulisan dalam bahasa yang lebih santai yang terus dari hati kiteww. Okey, jadi marilah saya memulakan penceritaan saya yang tak menarik sangat ni.

Ekceli *gitew, speaking plok* aku tengah cuti sem sekarang ni. Cuti start mase pertengahan bulan posa hari tu. Tapi aku stay kl dlu, nak dekat raya baru balik. kengkonon nak rasa balik secara berjemaah dengan warga kl yang lain. Baru ada feel anak rantau pulang berhari raya. Hishy, ngarut plak, sbnrnya nak jimat duit tambang balik kelantan. Balik lambat boleh tompang keta abang aku, juga boleh turut memeriahkan perjalanan beliau sekeluarga. Dah balik masa semua orang nak balik, haruslah jem keta macam parking atas jalan. Jadi abang ak pon dengan sabarnya melalui route yang jauh. Biasanya, balik kelantan ni kita lalu Pahang je (je? dkat 4 jam jgak duk dlm pahang tu). Tapi kali ni kitorang lalu pahang, ganu, baru kelantan sbb nak elak jem. Motip sangat aku nak kena citer smua ni -.-

Motip entry ni, aku nak menyelami isu menjadi seorang yang bergelar bujang (haa dah macam erra fazira dalm primadona ayatnya). Tiap-tiap hari aku duk baca status kawan-kawan aku yang kesal kerana masih belum bergelar isteri/laki orang. Sebenarnya aku pon kesal jugak. Pahtu ada plak kawan-kwan kita/ senior yang bg jemputan kahwin diorang. Lagi la perasaan ingin berumah tangga itu meruap-ruap (eh betul ke perkataan ni?)

The other day, I had read an article from a famous blog (I can't remember which one because I read too many famous blog, asal famous aku baca). The article is really a good article because it  gives, a single person-just like me, ideas of what to do while we're still not into a serious relationship and to appreciate our single time. I am totally agree that being a single is not something to regret. InsyaAllah we will meet our jodoh someday, and being someone wife is really nice, to love and to be loved giteww. But being single is also a precious moment. Must appreciate. And a few things that I want to do while I still did not meet my 'abam' hahahaha

1. Travel
Seronok je tengok kawan2 pegi holiday jauh2. Pegi plak tu sensorang atau ngan geng, best woo! Aku? Never pack my thing to travel by myself, even to travel in country. Oversea toksah duk cakap. Masalah besar aku ialah aku  tak masyuk sangat nak mengembara ni. Haruslah ada fulus semdiri walau tak banyak mana. Aku ni duk depend financially dekat bapak aku lagi. Cuti-cuti ni ingat nak pegi kerja. Tapi ayah tak bagi la plak pasal cuti aku berbaki tak sampai sebulan pon lagi. Sapa nak amik kerja kann. tapi sumpah boring sangat-sangat duk kat rumah  macam orang takde visi ni. Aku duk pk la cuti ni nak gi jenjalan kan tapi back to the basic, aku takde duwettttt. (Macam isytihar kat blog je yg aku ni bankrap).

Serious woah, dah kerja nanti, mase chambering ke ape tak kisah la. Nanti dapat cuti, dah ada duit skit, I want  to have some gateway, pi travel, sensorang, atau paling tak pn dgn sorang kawan. Malas pk pasal keta, rumah, tp nak g travel dlu. Hah zemangat giler kan.

Pengalaman travel selama ni hanyalah bersama femili. Best sbb spend time together pastu yang paling best snua benda free orang bayarkan kihkihkih. Pernah la pegi Langkawi dgn kawan masa tu wakilkan sekolah. Dah la kawan tu lelaki, sosial kan aku. hahaha.. Tp tak best sangat masa tu sbb masa tu dah la student form 4 je (mana ada duit yang banyak, walaupun sekarang takde duit jgak, tapi takde duit dlu lagi miskin dari takde duit sekarang) pastu pegi dengan orang-orang yang tak kenal kcuali sorang kawan je (yg lelaki tu la, dah aku dgn dia je wakil sekolah kami)

2. Bisnes
Serious aku nak ada bisnes. Bukan boleh kayo sangat pon. Stakat dapat untung skit ada lah. tapi rezeki kita kan Allah yang tentukan, kalau dapat jadi kayo pon apo salahnya hihihoo... Bisnes ni dapat membantu kita menjadi lebih matang dan berdikari. Ini benar ya, aku dah try. Pengalaman tu penting. Impian bisnes aku, aku nak buat bisnes candy  buffet. Comel kan hikhik *gelak comel*  Aku suka tau baking, decorate semua benda tu. Best! Nak sangat ada bisnes ni. Nak3 *mata bulat  macam puss in boot* Ni memang betul passion aku lah, compare to law. Sorii!

Hari tu aku ada lah try buat bisnes pretzel, untung tu hokeyh la, tapi itu tidak bermakna aku berputus asa dari dunia bisnes ini. Itu baru permulaan. Harus ada langkah seterusnya. Berzemangat lagi

3. Driving
Aku nak kena mantopkan lagi skill driving aku ni. Selalu kna marah dengan ayah aku, macam pegawai jpj memarahi si budak yg br nak amik lesen. Pastu bila dah kena marah, aku terus hilang keyakinan diri serta merta. Jadi harus bagaimana lagi? Sedih kite *bawa diri pegi sebelah tong sampah nangis*

Kna beli keta before kawen ni. So dapat la aku drive sampai habis jalan tanpa dimarahi oleh sesiapa. Dan kereta haruslah auto. Mase bli keta tu krja baru sebln 2, fresh graduate harus lah hanya mampu kereta local yg comel2 je. Sedih lagi.

Tapi tiap kali nampak crz kat jalan, hati ak meronta-ronta  utk memilikinya. Mahu kamu! Kalau nak crz kna krja 5 thn dlu br dpt kumpul duit byr muka, tp kalau bli keta biasa2 je aku dapat keta sdiri dan mampu drive sesuka hati sehingga memiliki skill memandu luar biasa hebatnya. So nak skill memandu cpt ke nak crz? Skill memandu sblm kawen la supaya laki aku tak perlu susah hantar aku pegi mall mase aku nak berjimba seorang diri (betul ke slps kawen bleh berjimba seorg diri? bukan ke shopping dgn laki lbh best? knp kna shopping sorg2, kan dah  ada laki?)

4. Kuruih
Ni antara benda penting nak kena capai sebelum kawin, kuruih macam Rita Rudaini. Bukan nak kuruih sangat3, aku nak fit. Sebab aku ni sangat la cumil dan gebu dan telah lama menternak lelemak smua ni. Jangan kata lelemak sayuran je, smua lemak ada.

And I've already started this challenge together with my friend last sem. Eventhough, it was a slow process because we never get involve in all sort of slimming products, sbb smua nampak cam menipu jer. But Alhamdulillah, at the end of sem, we can see the transformation. Perubahan tu nampak ketara sangat bila kita letak gamba awal sem and gmba hujung sem sebelah2. Kita tak rasa tau, tapi sbnrnya dlm diam badan kita shrinking. Lemak di peha still ada, perut masih berlipat *malu* tapi sbnrnya bdan kita ni jadi kecut tau. Macam scary plak hahahah. Jauh lagi perjalanan challenge kami ni. Ni dah cuti sem, berat naik plok. Sia-sia je. Nanti mula sem start balik, hilangkan lemak-lemak yang diternak semasa cuti sem huhuhuhuhu..

Sbnrnya target nak kurus ni asalnya before konvo. Maknanya konvo nanti nak pkai baju kebaya macam che ta. Tapi macam payah la plo. Konvo bln 11, tp skrg ni pon duk montel lg. Takpe konvo aku 2 kali. Tak tahun ni, tahun depan. Paling lambat pon aku kna kuruh masa kawin tau.

Aku sbnrnya bukan ada kekangan dari sesapa pon utk nak kurus ni. takde sapa paksa pon. Pastu aku dah tak kisah pon dengar caci keji hina orang ramai (tapi kan aku rasa takde la sampai thap camtu sekali hahahaha). Aku nak kurus utk diri aku sendiri. Atas kesedaran I love myself, aku harus lah jaga body, jaga pemakanan. Kalau boleh nak sixpacks kat perut kahkahkah... Bukan ape, aku pk nnt aku nak mengandung (haa jauh kan pk) dan aku nak mengandung dengan keadaan badan yang sihat dan fit. Haa.. bermatlamat sangat. Ini lah dinamakan naluri keibuan. Haaa... nak kurus tu ada kaitan dengan naluri seorang ibu tawuu!

Dalam duk jaga nak kurus ni, benda yang paling penting aku belajar ialah ubah cara hidup kita, cara kita makan, cara kita jaga kesihatan. Dalam nak kurus ni, aku belajar yang kita kena ubah attitude kita ke arah gaya hidup sihat. Riadah waktu petang dan hujung minggu sebenarnya penting dan best!

Dah la tu buat masa ni. Dah penat taip, dah la keypad ni terkopak dek kerja tangan kecik comel anak sedara aku. Okey baii!

sungguh..
aku rindu  waktu  itu.
waktu aku masih punya seorang ibu
waktu  dia memanjakan aku.

sungguh..
aku rindu waktu itu
aku  dihatinya
aku dalam ingatannya
tak perlu untuk dia ingatkan aku
aku tahu aku cinta hatinya

aku rindu  waktu  itu
dia bercerita pada aku
dan dialah luahan hati kegemaran aku
walau dia banyak berceloteh
walau kadang-kadang aku  rimas
tapi dia tetap kesukaanku

rindu itu ada
ingatan pula
setiap masa
namun adakalanya
mata juga jadi mangsa

memang dia takkan ada pengganti
dan memang aku takkan pernah cari
yang lain
walau dah lama dia pergi

aku tahu masa takkan kembali
aku tahu  hadiah terbaik untuk dia
ummul kitab dan doa-doa
aku harap
kalau  dia lihat aku
dia takkan pernah menangis lagi
semoga syurga yang emak rasa

A friendly reminder, please pronounce 'ramadan' as if it is pronounce by Maher Zain no matter how the way the spelling is, whether with 'h' or without 'h'. (heh, banyak pulak bebelnya). this is because I am quite particular about this.

It's less than a month before Ramadan. so, friend, what is your preparation? What is your resolution for this coming Ramadan?

Mine, I have not  doing the full-preparation. Dunno why. Malas lah kot. huhu.. I just try to have my fasting day as much as I can before the real fasting in Ramadan. (macam puasa masa syaaban tak real pulek). But still, I fail. And also to perform solatsunat pun malas jugak. Apa nak jadi  ntahh. Pastu kan bila rasa rajin skit, dah cuti la pulok (true confession). hahaha.. anda penah tak macam tu??

My  resolution for this ramadan, besides doing those sunah things that all of us will do, (insyaAllah, like having sahoor, performing terawih, reciting al-Quran), aku nak sangat hafal surah. Tak banyak, sikit  pun jadi lah. I wish I had time for that. this ramadan might  be challenging  because it will be the final week. Yuppp..

Dah la belaja pun ala-ala, macam paham tak paham je. Pastu assessment pun banyak lagi tak  siap. Pastu aku ni masihh ada hati pi jalan-jalan cuti-cuti sekolah dengan family hari tu macam takde apa2. Apa nak jadi ni weyh! Dah final sem weyyhhh! Sedar diri sikit. Study!

Eh, dah alang-alang nak ramadan ni, mesti ada ketuk-ketuk ramadan, rancangan peberet aii msa ramdan keyh. Jangan kutuk-kutuk masa ramadan dah lah. haa, pastu aku suka dengar lagu  raihan harapan ramadan dengan satu lagi lagu raihan pasal malam al-qadr, apa ntah tajuk lagu tu. Tgk la sdiri kat youtube, ak malas nak letak kat sini.

Perasan tak aku suka cakap, eh taip 'pastu'. Kalo aku  cakap pun aku suka  cakap 'pastu' banyak kali. dari kecik lg. Kakak-kakak aku la yg notice tebiat ni. Dah nak wat camno..tebiat..

Kenapa cepat menghukum pemikiran orang lain?
Untuk melihatkan diri itu cukup sempurna?
Supaya terlihat semua kekurangan saya?
Sedangkan apa yang saya fikirkan itu tidak sejahat dan seburuk yang kamu sangka.
Don't lowered down other to make you pious, my sister!
When the time they leave you, don't blame the society.

Ya, memang kamu solehah, memang kamu yang baik.
Tapi adakah disebabkan saya melontarkan pandangan dari sisi lain, saya perlu dilihat sebagai yang jahat.
Take it easy, I'm never take it too serious.
Sometimes life is not about giving an advice.
Yes, you have a lot of advice.
But sometime people might just throw their idea to makes it fun.

oh dia buat begitu tak spt kita, perlu basuh budak ni.
oh sangkaan dia bukan mengikut prinsip husnuzon spt kita, nasihatkan dia
oh tindakan dia begini tdk spt kita, tunjukkan teladan kita yang baik pada dia
sbnrnya konsep semua di atas seccara ringkasnya adalah
dia salah, kami betul. Ajar dia, ajar dia. Nasihatkan dia. Dia perlukan bimbingan.

Jadi jangan pelik jika aku bosan dengan kamu.
Don't blame the society when they leave you.


ps: kalau post ni kena dibasuh jugak  dengan nasihat2nya aku tak tahu lah. tolong lah sokong aku.. titeww gewammm gler

I found this on tumblr and I  think it is nice to let you know about me since i never had a post that really talk about ME.

Now, have fun (if you are reading)!

1. 1: what is your name?
2.      Siti Zulaikha (simple one but i think it is nice.hehe..but,seriously!)
3. 2: do you chew on your straws?
4.      Yup.
5. 3: what country do you live in?
6.      Malaysia
7. 4: describe your dream marriage.
8.      full of 'barakah'
9. 5: have you got any real life friends that you follow on tumblr?
10.      Yes. the one who like Khairul Azzam
11. 6: who is your best friend?
12.      A couple of name, but I dont want to mention any of them. they know :)
13. 7: do you have a tumblr crush?
14.      Nope.
15. 8: what's your favorite sports team?
16.      i don't like sport. 
17. 9: how many followers do you have?
18.      I dont really count them. Because I think I dont have any.hihi..
19. 10: is it easy for you to get up in the morning?
20.       Of course not easy!
21. 11: are you a shy or outgoing person?
22.        Very shy!
23. 12: who do you trust the most?
24.        My little brother
25. 13: how old are you?
26.       21
27. 14: what does your name mean?
28.       A beauty. but, seriously !?
29. 15: what is your nationality?
30.       Malaysia
31. 16: where do you live?
32.        Kelantan
33. 17: have you ever had a crush on a teacher or found one attractive?
34.       Yup.I was form 3 at that time. 
35. 18: name 3 good movies
36.        -3 idiots
37.        -the hunger games
38.         -a moment to remember
39. 19: favorite season?
40.        what season?
41. 20: if you could change your nationality what would you be?
42.        Arabian
43. 21: countries that you have been to?
44.       Never
45. 22: what countries would you like to visit?
46.       Spain
47. 23: what is your favorite color?
48.        Yellow, and also pink

1. 24: anyone you hate?
2.       Sometimes, everybody
3. 25: are you good at math?
4.        Maybe..but I love math
5. 26: what should you be doing right now?
6.        studying for the upcoming tests
7. 27: is there anything that you are worried about?
8.        My final year project 
9. 28: describe your dream spouse
10.        Hehe...I can look at him without blinking*melampau.. to be honest, I can love him, without any terms and      conditional. unconditional love!
11. 29: sunrise or sunset?
12.       sunset*the day is off,now we can have a rest!
13. 30: chocolate or vanilla?
14.       both
15. 31: what turns you on from the opposite sex?
16.        hah?
17. 32: what color are your eyes?
18.        Brown
19. 33: what is something that bothers you?
20.       wifi with password
21. 34: what do you dream of?
22.       Travel
23. 35: name 5 childhood memories.
24.       -fancy toys
25.       -tv shows
26.       -my sister's teenaager' life
27.       -the house
28.       -mother's love 
29. 36: do you like airports?
30.        Really love it
31. 37: last movie you watched?
32.       Thor:the dark world
33. 38: do you like school?
34.        Literally, no!
35. 39: what's ur bedtime?
36.       midnight and above
37. 40: are you a boy or girl?
38.       Gegirl la
39. 41: what would you like to ask your followers?
40.        Love yourself!
41. 42: does anyone like you?
42.       I wish I know
43. 43: how old you?
44.        Not so old
45. 44: languages you know?
46.       Malaysia, English.
47. 45: any goals?
48.       Lose weight before graduation day, or before my wedding
49. 46: what is the first thing you wanna do with your spouse after you get married?
50.        Pray
51. 47: favourite song?
52.       Tetap menunggumu
53. 48: do you wear glasses? Contacts?
54.       Glasses
55. 49: how tall are you?
56.       about 158cm
57. 50: do you have any piercings?
58.       Yup
59. 51: do you have or want any tattoos?
60.        Nope and i dun want
61. 52: anyone on tumblr you would like to meet in real life?
62.        No
63. 53: anyone on tumblr you hate?
64.        No
65. 54: do you have any siblings on tumblr?
66.       No
67. 55: how many people do you follow?
68.        A lot
69. 56: describe your dream vacation?
70.        With the beloved one
71. 57: is there anyone on tumblr that you would marry if you could?
72.        The founder!
73. 58: are you ticklish?
74.        No
75.  59: what's something you really want right now?
76.         Money
77. 60: do you miss anyone?
78.       Yes
79. 61: how are you feeling?
80.        i-have-a-lot-of-work-to-do-but-I-just-sit-here-with-my-laptop
81. 62: at what age would you like to get married?
82.        25. or younger than that
83. 63: do you live or act in your desires?
84.        Always
85. 64: what are you most thankful for?
86.       For this life
87. 65: favorite flower?
88.        Daisy
89. 66: favorite Disney princess?
90.        Rapunzel
91. 67: fav texture?
92.       texture what?
93. 68: fav flavor?
94.        chocolate
95. 69: fav scent?
96.       men's perfume, like seriously
97. 70: fav store?
98.        jusco
99. 71: do you write with pen or pencil more?
100.        Pen. it's permanent
101. 72: post a pic of yourself
102.        hurm...
103. 73: if you could fast forward to another part of you life what would it be?
104.        i want to know who is the lucky guy that will sleep next to me after 10 years from now.hihhihihi
105. 74: if you could go back in time how far back would you go?
106.       10 years ago
107. 75: anything you regret?
108.        Yes, not going to boarding school. otherwise, i might pursue study in medic
109. 76: are you dark or light skinned?
110.        Malaysian called it 'sawo matang'
111. 77: do you have any type of medical conditions?
112.       no.i think i am well,except for those fats
113. 78: what does sex mean to you?
114.        ehem...i cant answer this

1. 79: how many kids do you want?
2.        at first  I want 4, but now I think as many as I can bear the pain. hurm...
3. 80: favorite show as a child?
4.        I can't remember, a lot
5. 81: if you could meet anyone from the past or present who would you wanna meet?
6.        from the past;my mother,from the present;my kids
7. 82: who are your tumblr friends?
8.       come on, this is not tumblr. stop asking about tumblr!
9. 83: someone comes up to you and tells you that ur beautiful. What do you do?
10.        Just smile. wondering if that person lying.

I wondering what ootd means. Celebrity, famous blogger always have their ootd picture. Then, I found out what ootd means (of course I google it. hihi..) I told my friends, and most of them are just like me, just find out what is ootd. haha..

OOTD stand for outfit of the day. Gotcha!! I will have my ootd picture too.

And I want to be 'rare'


Baju kurung kek lapis sarawak from Jalan TAR (i can't recall which lot), handbag konon2 gucci la sangat from Kenanga Wholesale City (beli borong memang murah tp dibeli scr hutang dan belom byr lg. mmg pnjg explanation) , Flat from Flat 3A seram tak?

Hah, rare kan? OOTD version without face or body. Comel tak Kak Ton? huahuahua...

I just realize that law is not so into me. Because I found it just full of boredom. I just realize that cooking is my passion. Yuppp. I miss home. I miss myself being busy with the meal of the day. I mean cooking, just cooking. Not eating. I just miss home.. I can't be here. But I know, I must keep going on for about maybe, two years. Yes, I will survive.



 And the thing that killing me the most inside is that the friend who is the closest one, we're just missed out from each other now. I think. But I hope not. Everyday, I'm hoping....