Yes, she had left me, 100 days before. I doesn't actually count the days. My family kept remind me about that. I don't want to know how much day she had left me because the fact is still the same, she-had-left-me. No matter how many days had already past, the day is still the same, she-is-not-by-my-side.

But the most important thing that I know is Allah loves her much more than I love her. Allah knows better than me, not just 'better', its 'very better'.

AL-Fatihah untuk bonda saya.

'Ya Allah, berikanlah kepada dia balasan yang baik di atas kesibukannya dalam memelihara kami. Ampunilah dia di atas segala kekurangannya dalam mengabdi kepadaMu,kerana dia mendahulukan kami dalam melayan kami'