yeah, everything is not the  same.
I have to  admit it now.
I've been lying to myself for a long time.
I lied to myself. I said, everything remain the same. Nothing changed.
But, badly, I'm too tired to let myself lie on me. I have to give up.
No matter how I'm try, all happiness that I had before, they all gone.
I'm tired.
I'm just tired to stand alone...